Wednesday, June 29, 2016

This Sunday @ Locust Hill UMC: Favorites: You Will Lose Sleep

 "You will lose sleep" is a comment that I received alot as Kiah and I waited for the arrival of Laurel. I never quite new what to say to that. I guess "thank you?" It is true. As I write this I am exhausted! Up all night trying to put a baby with a stomach ache to sleep is no easy task. In fact it can be frustrating especially when one is sleep deprived. 

James says ""For when the way is rough, your patience has a chance to grow. So let it grow, and don't try to squirm out of your problems. For when your patience is finally in full bloom, then you will be ready for anything, strong in character, full and complete." James says something many of us miss through out our lifetime. It is that Character is not formed in the moments where "life is good" or "we have our stuff together" it is much more formed when the way is "rough." It is in the moments that we are trying so hard to grab onto the little patience we have in spite of the looming easy grab off the shelf: anger and frustration. For in those moments character is formed for good or bad. And this character will most likely shape who we are. 

A question people asked me prior to Laurel being born is "what are you most excited about?" It took me awhile to find an answer that was concise and to the point. What I came up with is that Laurel, I believe, will make me a better human being and a much better follower of Jesus. She was going to draw out somethings in me that I didn't know where there. She is going to draw a fullness of love, a fullness of patience, a fullness of kindness. 

I wouldn't call my daughter a "trial" but I would say she has already taught me that character is something that is delicately formed and fought for in rough moments. It is in the moments that "life" hits in the face and we are left asking ourselves "what we are made of" and "who we are." Are these moment going to make us better human beings and better followers of Jesus Christ?

There is no doubt to me why this verse is a favorite. It is a reminder of when life is draining and trying... there is a deeper well that we can draw from... that is not our own... but will sustain and give us life.